January 2011
58 posts
Thankful
I don’t do this nearly enough, but a GSI reminded me how beneficial it is to periodically write down things you are thankful for. Here goes:
My amazing family & group of friends who are incredibly supportive and loving (I am thankful for them every single day)
That my sister and I are best friends again <3
That I have learned so much from Cal
That I am not afraid to capture...
“I can hear your voice thick with judging.”
– Ricardo (false) Borges :)
WANT. I DON'T KNOW WHY. →
YES!
Support for the mediation I found in another research article:
“However, it is also noteworthy that these bivariate analyses provided some evidence in support of the general ethnic pluralist argument. This is to say that, for minorities, joining a minority ethnic organization in college was related not only to the degree of one’s ethnic identity and intergroup bias but also to the degree...
Lack of Grit.
I haven’t written something in a while. I guess I haven’t felt inspired…it’s something that worries me a bit. It’s my last semester of undergrad and I really want to make the most of everyday. I’ve been having a lot of trouble actually buckling down and getting work done. This makes my thesis situation all the more stressful. Once again, I am my own worst enemy.
“I destroy my enemies when I make them my friends.”
– Abraham Lincoln
Boss Man.
Super nervous to meet with my boss man faculty advisor, Dr. Rudy Mendoza-Denton.
He write’s this blog: http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/are-we-born-racist
And has this research under his belt: http://mendoza-denton.socialpsychology.org/
Hope I don’t pull a Homer and do this:
http://www.hulu.com/watch/33844/the-simpsons-the-land-of-chocolate
Today I learned.
Some people choose their words carefully, making sure no misconceptions or fallacies are intertwined in a given sentence.
Others do not.
“Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I...”
– CHEESY. <3
FEB. 2ND?! FML
In a matter of 3 hours I realized I have 3 commitments on February 2nd. They conflict with each other and all important to me. :(((
1. Supreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor judges a Law School competition from 6-7:30pm at Wheeler Hall.
2. The Mad Men course begins. 6-8pm. If I don’t attend this day, I have no chance of being in the course.
3. I am supposed to meet my mentor who is a...
Just a thought.
Maybe I shouldn’t listen to depressing, self-loathing music while I’m supposed to be convincing people how great I am on applications.
ALL I DO IS WIN. haha
“The hardest part…is realizing you’re in charge.”
– Helen Bishop, Mad Men Season 2 Ep. 10
And Suddenly,
I feel proud of myself. Stage 5 clinger I AM NOT.
“One of my new year’s resolutions is to say “yes” more. Yes to...”
– Liz Lemon
JEW
Ironically, Jimmy Eat World’s “The Middle” made me feel a lot better today.
Hey, don’t write yourself off yet. It’s only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just do your best, do everything you can. And don’t you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say. It just takes some time, little girl you’re in the middle of the ride. ...
FINALLY →
Can’t tell you how many women believe this.
WISE LATINA →
Beauty. →
Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life.
And I guess I’m faithful to my freedom, a selfish kind of life.
Poof
So many good feelings vanished today. Berkeley, you are not going to make this easy.
In a couple of hours I realized:
My attention span has regressed to that of a 5 year old (Thanks TV)
I really, really, really need to go the gym.
I cannot fathom why I signed up to do an honors thesis. So much work and stress.
I am scared about this semester.
More classes tomorrow.
Peace
It’s the first day of the last semester of my undergraduate career. I am so happy that I am not seething with anxiety…like I was last year. I have people in my classes I know, connections to my professors and a knowledge of the campus. I want to savor this peace AND share it with another first-year student. :)
I’m going to miss you, Berkeley :(((
Back to the Future
Uggh. I have arrived and I am less then enthusiastic about it. It seems like so much work already awaits…both emotional and professional.
I am homesick. I miss my family.
I have a new laptop, roommate and yearly planner.
I have lost a friend.
Berkeley isn’t patient while I adjust.
Up and Down
Tide rises and falls. Thoughts and emotions unstable and volatile.
Despite all this craziness, I hold on to one line.
“…maybe it wasn’t me. Maybe it was him.”
Prayer?
If I could have anything in the world, I would ask for my sister to be happy.
I want her crazy ex-bf to leave her alone, I want her to be strong at the hearing tomorrow and I want her to move past all this nonsense with confidence and resilience.
This isn’t too much to ask.
Special Angels.
I realized I often am compelled by images of women “acting out”
1. Revolutionary Road:
2. Black Swan: (my desktop background)
3. Betty Draper: (From Shoot, Season 1, Mad Men)
>:]
“They taught us at Barnard about that word, ‘utopia’. The Greeks had...”
– Rachel Menken, Mad Men
Overslept.
You know that feeling when you know you’ve slept too much? Like the sleep itself made you more sleepy…kind of counterproductive? That’s how I feel about this break. A month is too long. I need to open my eyes.
Sidenote: When I start worrying about relationships, I know I need to find more productive outlets for my time.
Please read. →
My Future Professor →
The Great Deluge
I am currently reading this amazing book by Professor Douglas Brinkley:
(Why was it $3.99 on Clearance at Borders?!)
It has made me want to volunteer in New Orleans/Gulf Coast. Unfortunately, all application deadlines for Spring break and Summer programs have passed :(
Sad me :(
My whiny e-mail is my last hope.